Sunday, September 18, 2005


love is the master
and I am the puppet

love pulls the strings
and makes me dance
dancing and swirling in and out of its light

it controls my thoughts
my actions
my movements
my very state of being

but nobody really understands
that much is made certain

but what happens when the master cuts the strings away
and I fall
no guidance
no direction
no thought to what I should or should not do
can somebody tell me what to do
- me

hidden in plain view

everything dies
to u nothins alive
to you

if i could take ur pain away
i would sccream for you
and i bleed for you
so you never feel this way
and when your in my arms
i would scream for you
i will bleed for you

put the weight on my shoulders
put the pain in my heart
let it tear me apart

so i can be
everything you need...

i should be updatin...once somthin good happens

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

best verse ever

I have not changed my viewsBut every band reports the same newsSo let them tell you punks not deadMaybe they can get aheadIs that the subject you wanna hearNothing's changed but the yearI don't wanna repeat someone else's lines.That's such a waste of time.

Sunday, September 04, 2005


Birthday:march 3
Current Location:NC
Eye Color:brown
Hair Color:currently blue
Height:5' 11"
Right Handed or Left Handed:right
The Shoes You Wore Today:converses
Your Weakness:punk girls
Your Fears:oldness...gross
Your Perfect Pizza:peperoni and...gumball
Your Most Overused Phrase On an IM:wickeeeeeeeeed
Thoughts First Waking Up:why the fuck am i waking up
Your Best Physical Feature:iunno...sam would say my baby crushing pecs
Your Bedtime:psht
Your Most Missed Memory:sts
Pepsi or Coke:pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:fuck that
Single or Group Dates:single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:dont care
Chocolate or Vanilla:chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:gross
Do you Smoke:not anymore
Do you Swear:fuck no
Do you Sing:sometimes
Do you Shower Daily:yeah
Have you Been in Love:ja
Do you want to go to College:yeah
Do you want to get Married:maybe
Do you belive in yourself:sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:no
Do you think you are Attractive:iunno im told i am
Are you a Health Freak:psht
Do you get along with your Parents:mom yeah dad no
Do you like Thunderstorms:hells yeah
Do you play an Instrument:bass
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yeah
In the past month have you Smoked:yeah
In the past month have you been on Drugs:define drugs...jk no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:no
In the past month have you gone to a M***:yeah
Have you ever eaten a box of Oreos:yeah
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:no
In the past month have you been on Stage:yeah
In the past month have you been Dumped:yeah
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:yeah
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:yeah
Ever been Drunk:yeah
Ever been c***ed a Tease:no
Ever been Beaten up:does my dad count?
Ever Shoplifted:yeah
How do you want to Die:i wanna die in a mosh pit
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:photographer or musician
What country would you most like to Visit:england
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:blue
Favourite Hair Color:RED
Short or Long Hair:diff for diff ppl...short hair can be sexy sometimes
Height:shorter than me
Best Clothing Style:punk
Number of Drugs I have taken:less than me
Number of CDs I own:dont care
Number of Piercings:belly button/nose/ears
Number of Tattoos:2
Number of things in my Past I Regret:less than me


Saturday, September 03, 2005

waste some time

shoulda done somthin but ive done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste my time with you
shoulda said somthin but i said it enough
by the way my hands were shakin
rather waste some time with you

yeah so sorry i havent updated in and stuff...yeah im gonna get back on track with this, not that it particularly matters. haha
my schedule

1-art history
4- ips ~science~
5-music ensemble
7-western philosophy

Thursday, August 25, 2005


i want the pain of payment
whats left but a section of pygmy sized cuts
much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
would u be my little cut
would u be my thousand fucks
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a FUCKING KNIFE

Monday, August 22, 2005


i once saw a man with his heart in his hands
and he was eating of it
and i asked him...
is it good
and he replied
it is bitter
but i like it because it is bitter
and i love it because it is mine
my heart

Sunday, August 21, 2005

my last serenade

this revelation is the death of ignorance tangled in a state of suffocation slave to self righteousness damnation is on your lips from sorrow to serenity, the truth is absolution,from sorrow to serenity, its on your head this is my last serenade i feel you as you fall away this is my last serenade from yourself you can't run away it's your choice, point the finger but it's on your head your destination is a choice within yourself will you rise or become a slave to self righteousness open up your heart and gaze within.-killswitch engage.
im glad i saw it coming this time because now i just dont give a fuck!
oh yeah camp was cool. nobody called tho so i hate them all!
fuck its hot.

my last serenade